Safe Sunday 1 - Acceptance

Safe Sunday will be a place for self-growth, exploration, or maybe a love letter to my readers. I hope that it may spark something in you. I woke up today feeling different. I started thinking about my life. I woke up feeling open. I was about to make myself vulnerable to the world. Ashley are you sure you want to do this? I know you all talk to yourselves too. I said nope but it's happening! A lot of my fears came from years of being afraid of what others would think of me. If I dressed this way, wear my hair like that, watch that show or love that song, what are people going to think of me? Why is she so weird? I knew I was different. People always told me "you have an old soul." I always felt A LOT of things at once. My mom calls me her "sensitive child."

I'll never forget when I met "TJ" in high school. He was different. I was scared because he had no problem expressing his self. I was not there yet. I was drawn to his energy. We would talk about everything; God, art, fashion, music, anime, heavy life stuff. I felt so free. I'll never forget my mysterious neighbor. He turned out to be a pivotal person in my journey. One thing I learned from him is that even though he was scared just like me, he lived out loud anyway. Shout out to him. I am forever grateful that we crossed paths. I wanted to be an interior decorator, teacher, counselor, lawyer, fashion designer, singer, and write children books. Whew, just reading what I wrote makes my eyes cross. I wrote children's books in high school and saved them to a floppy disk, yes a FLOPPY DISK! I only told a few about it and then the floppy disk was damaged and technology advanced. I moved on to something else.

I felt like God dropped a package on my doorstep ( if you know me then you know I love getting packages) and I had to figure out what to do with it. How in the world was I going to be all those things? Then it hit me. It wasn't my job to figure it out, I just needed to trust the process. He already wrote the manual. God is the designer. As a child, we have the nerve to believe anything is possible. I love her! What happened to her? How do I find her? She was not lost. She had become the complainer. I watched everybody live while I “should of could of” about my own life decisions. Right now, I am currently working in the mental health field and to be transparent, I am just existing at this job. I am bursting at the seams with purpose. I want to do more! Today I decided to take the leap and begin this journey of blogging. Today I begin this journey of accepting multifaceted me because God already has. Did you know God knew exactly where you would be at this very moment? Have you accepted your purpose? If you could create your perfect life, what would it look like? GO DO IT! You are enough right now. Let‘s talk about it! xoxo